Hope is What I Crave

A couple weeks ago I went to a naturopath. I love my primary doctor and agree with his treatment, but after not seeing progress I desired after six months, I was getting discouraged. I realize adrenal fatigue and PCOS are challenging conditions to treat and take time to show signs of improvement,but I missed being human. A few doors swung open and I was able to consult with a local naturopathic physician.

After a few hours, I came home with a plan and six new supplements.  It has been a bit of a juggling act remembering what to take and when to take everything.  Even so, after the first couple days it felt like a few switches had been turned back on that had been off for too long!

~ I can actually wake up without struggling to get out of bed and feeling like a zombie for hours.

~ I wake earlier and I don't dread waking up.

~ I'm not falling asleep anytime I sit down, although I still have a stray nap or two sneak up on me.

~ Activities or even the thought of all that has to be done aren't AS crushingly overwhelming.

But there are some things that have gotten worse:

~ I ache a lot more.

~ I can't fall asleep and stay asleep as well at night.
~ I've developed an irritating rash I can't seem to get rid of (that started before the change in supplements).

Other things have remained the same with no change. And yet, now I have hope that those symptoms may get better in time.  

Living without hope was suffocating.  I wrestled with contentment. God had brought me to a place in the last six months of me asking "What if THIS is my life?". It took many long, heart broken prayers to come to the place where I just wanted and NEEDED contentment. Again, I had to remind myself God is good, He is all powerful and He is wise.  If I had to be still (literally) then I would use that time to know God and enjoy God and enjoy all He had for me even if it was not what I wanted.

But God... has given me hope that even though some struggles may remain until heaven He still can and will give respite. And I am thankful for this glimmer of hope He has given .